daily fitbattle #1111 (dear john letter…to my scale!)

21May10

I’ve been in battle for 1111 days.

FRIDAY MORNING NAKED WEIGHT	REALITY	LAST WEEK’S REALITY	VARIANCE
weight/pounds…	135.6	134.8	+ 0.8

Here are my daily nutrition stats for Thursday:

NUTRITION	CONSUMED	GOAL	VARIANCE
calories	1613	1425	+ 188
protein	165 grams	150 grams	+ 15 grams
carbs	155 grams	150 grams	+ 5 grams
total fat	39 grams	25 grams	+ 14 grams

Here are my other stats for today:

DAILY STATS	DETAILS
Workout	MORNING…stretching and spin class MID-DAY…physical therapy (yes it does include a short workout) EVENING…stretching and upper body with Chris
Successes	only success if my workouts today
Opportunities	ugh! nutrition was a mess yesterday. This is what happens when you gotta run around all day and there’s no time for tracking/planning. And I’m not happy with the scale either. I’m really hating the scale lately! I’ve not been able to maintain a weight below 135.

Dear Scale…

We have had such a meaningful relationship. There are so many times that I can remember when you gave me encouragement and motivation. You are always there. You make me feel welcome. Sometimes you even make me feel lighter.

I see you flutter when we first touch. Then you wink and I know it’s going to be okay. Our relationship has helped me grow and progress. I know you will always be there to bring me balance and a sense of reality. There is so much I am grateful for and I will cherish these memories.

A false enchantment can all too easily last a lifetime. ~W. H. Auden

It brings me great sadness to write this letter to you. I couldn’t bear facing you…I would not have been able to hold back the tears. I need some space and time to think things through. Lately I’ve felt a reluctance to see you and when I do spend time with you the disappointment that lingers below the happiness you and I once had is unbearable. I know this is something I need to work out on my own…it’s not you, it’s me!

I hope you understand. I do not want to hurt you! I just need to take responsibility for my journey and stop relying on you so much. Where I go from here I’m not so sure but I know this next step is important for me.

I’d like to stay friends and check in with you now and then. I care deeply for you. I just need some time to grow as an individual.

Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.  ~Author Unknown

Best wishes for a lighter load… ♥ Kathi

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